Monday, February 14, 2005

A letter from an A/L student

vdJ fijia rw;W Nfl;gPh;fsh?


vdJ ngah; nry;tk; N[hd;rd;. ehd; rPyhKidia trpg;gplkhff; nfhz;ltd;. ehd; cah;ju tFg;G khztdhfTk; ,Ue;Njd;.
vd;Dila tho;f;ifahdJ brk;gh; 26k; jpfjpf;F Kd;djhf ,d;gkhf mike;jJ. Vnddpy; ehd; xU gf;fk; fy;tp fw;gtdhfTk; ,d;ndhU gf;fk; rpWth;fSld; Ntiy nra;Ak; %d;whtJ fz; cs;Sh; mwpT jpwd; nraw;ghl;Lf;FOtpy; mq;fj;JtdhfTk; ,Ue;J te;Njd;. vdNt vdJ tho;f;if kpftk; Kf;fpaj;Jtk; tha;e;j epiyapy; ,Uf;Fk; NghJ brk;gh; 26k; jpfjp MopahdJ nfhe;jspj;J vkJ Cuhd rPyhKidia #iwahbr; nrd;Wtpl;lJ. ,e;j MopapdJ Nguiyahy; ghjpf;fg;gl;l ehDk; vdJ FLk;gKk; xU ghJfhg;ghd gpuNjrj;ij ehbr; nrd;Nwhk;.


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,oe;J eph;f;fjpahf epd;W nfhz;bUe;Njhk;. mg;NghJ vdf;F cLg;gjw;F Milfs; $l ,y;iy.
Mdhy; iftrk; vd;dplk; ,Ue;jJ xU rhuhd; kl;LNk mJ jtpu Ntnwhd;Wkpy;iy ,g;gbahd xU mtr epiyapy; ,Ue;J ehd; xU khjphpahf kPz;Lte;Njd;. mg;NghJ ehd; xd;iw rpe;jpj;Jg; ghh;j;Njd;. ,J ekf;F kl;Lk; Vw;gl;l mdh;j;jk; my;y> khwhf njd;fpof;fhrpa
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rpe;jpj;Jg; ghh;j;jJ. rpWth;fis MFk;. vdNt ehd; ,e;j ghhpa mdh;j;jj;jpdhy; ghjpf;fg;gl;Lk; $l ehd; rpWth;fSf;fhd gapw;rpg; gl;liwfis mLj;j ehspNyNa Muk;gpj;Njd;. vdNt rpWth;fsJ epiy vg;gb ,Ue;jJ vd;Wk; mwpe;Njd;. ,th;fs; fLikahf gae;J NghapUe;jhh;fs; Vd; ehd; $l ,jw;F tpjptpyf;fh? vdf;Fk; fLikahd gakhfj;jhd; ,Ue;jJ. Vnddpy; ehd; fdtpy;$l ,g;gbnahU miyf;fhl;rpia fz;ljpy;iy. ,Ue;jhYk; vdJ kdij Njw;wpf; nfhz;L gapw;rpg; gl;liwfis elj;jpNdd;.

,g;gbahf vdJ tho;f;if rw;W rpWth;fSld; Ntiy nra;tjhy; re;Njh\khf ,Ue;J nfhz;bUf;Fk; Ntisapy; nte;j Gz;zpy; Ntiy gha;r;RtJ Nghy; ,d;DnkhU gpur;rpid vdf;F vOe;jJ.

mjhtJ ghjpf;fg;gl;l khzth;fSf;F A+d; khjj;jpYk;> ghjpf;fg;glhj kzth;fSf;F Vg;gpuy; ghPl;ir vd;gJ vdJ kdij kPz;Lk; Gz;gLj;jpaJ. Vnddpy; ehd; ,g;NghJ ,Uf;Fk; epiyahdJ xU epue;jukw;wjhf fhzg;gLfpwJ. mjhtJ vdf;F epue;jukhf ,Ue;J fy;tp fw;gjw;Nfw;w trjpAkpy;iy. Neuj;jpw;F czT fpilf;fhky; NghjYk; vdJ cs;sj;ij Gz;gLj;Jk; ,e;j epiyapy; Nkyjpfhhpfs; vLj;jpUf;Fk; ,e;j KbthdJ vd;id tpag;gpy; Mo;j;jpaJ.

Vnddpy; vd;idg; nghWj;jtiu ehd; ,g;NghJ vdJ FLk;gj;ij eph;zapf;Fk; xUtdhf khwpf;nfhz;bUf;fpNwd;. Vndd;why;
vdJ mg;ghtpw;Fk; tajhfpf; nfhz;L NghfpwJ. vdNt mtUila Rikia fl;lhakhf ehd; Rkf;f Ntz;ba epiy Vw;gl;Ls;sJ. vdNt vdJ FLk;gepiyikia gw;wp Nahrpg;gjh? my;yJ vdJ fytpiag; gw;wp Nahrpg;gjh? rw;W rpe;jpj;Jg; ghUq;fs; cq;fSf;F $l tpil rw;Wg; Gjpuhfj;jhd; ,Uf;Fk;.

jw;Nghija epiyapy; vq;fSf;F tho xU epue;jukhd ,Ug;gplk; xd;W Njit. mij tpLj;J xU khjj;jpw;F ehd;F jlitfs;
ntt;NtW Kfhk;fis ehbr; nry;yNtz;Lk;. vd;why; ehq;fs; vd;d ke;ijf; $l;lq;fsh? ,y;iy ke;ijfshf fzpf;fg;gLfpd;Nwhkh? vdNt Kjypy; xU epue;ju trpg;gplj;ij vq;fSf;F fhl;ba gpw;ghL ,e;jg; ghPl;iria gw;wp fijj;J ,Uf;f Ntz;Lk;. khwhf ,J vq;fSf;F
Ntjidia je;Js;sJ. Vnddpy; ehk; xU ,f;fl;lhd #o;epiyapy; tho;e;J nfhz;bUf;Fk;NghJ #oYf;F Vw;wthW vq;fis jahh;gLj;jhky; ahNuh r%f eyd; tpUk;gpfSf;fhf vk;ik
gyte;jkhf fy;tpfw;f itf;fg;ghh;f;fpwhh;fs;. vtNuh xUth; epl;rakhf ,e;jg; ghPl;ir ,e;j fhyfl;lj;jpy; ,uz;L tifahf elj;jg;glNtz;Lk; vd;why; mij ghjpf;fg;gl;l khzth;fshfpa vq;fsplj;jpy; Nfl;L KbT nra;ahky; mth; xU Kf;fpakhd gpui[ vd;w hPjpapy; mth; nrhd;dhy; khzth;fspd; ed;ikf;fhfj;jhd; $Wthh; vd;W nrhy;ypf; nfhz;L vk;ik Vg;uypy; jahh;gLj;Jq;fs;> A+dpy; jahh;gLj;Jq;fs; vd;gJ vk;ik rKjha eyd; tpUk;gpfSf;fhf gbf;f itg;gJ Nghy njhpatUk;. vdNt ,jw;F ghjpf;fg;gl;l khzth;fsplk; Nfl;L nra;tNj rhpahd xU KbthFk;.

Vnddpy; ,g;gbahd rpy KbTfis vLj;Jj;jhd; khzth;fs; gyUila tho;f;ifia ,ilNahL mopj;jdh;. mjw;F rpwe;j vLj;Jf;fhl;Lfshf rpytw;iw $WfpNwd; NfSq;fs;.

2004 Mk; Vg;uy; khjk; ghPl;irf;F khzth;fs; jahuhfpf; nfhz;bUf;Fk; Ntisapy; me;jf; fhyfl;lj;jpy; murhq;fj; Njh;jy; xd;W mjpy; Eioe;jjhy me;j ghP;ir gpw;Nghlg;gl;lJ. ,q;Nf ehk; rpytw;iw mtjdhpj;Jg; ghh;j;jhy; xU Njh;jYf;fhf xU Kf;fpakhd Nghl;bg; ghPl;iria xU khjk; gpw;Nghl KbAk; vd;why; ,J xU ,aw;if mdh;j;jk; vdNt ,jw;fhf ,e;jg; ghPl;iria vy;NyhUk; xUkpf;f Nrh;e;J vOJk; xU ghPl;irahf itf;fKbahjh ,jw;F Vd; jaf;Ffpwhh;fs; vd;W vdf;Fj; njhpatpy;iy. Vndd;why; ,e;j mdh;j;j gPjpapy; ,Ue;J tpLglNt fpl;lj;jl;l %d;W khjq;fs; gpbf;Fk;. vdNt ,ij fUj;jpw; nfhs;shJ ghPl;iriag; gw;wp rpe;jpg;gJ vd;gJ Nghypj;jdkhFk;.

mLj;j vLj;Jf;fhl;lhf tlf;F fpof;fpy; Kjyhtjhf 1991k; Mz;by; jhd; Kjd; Kiwahf Z Score
Kiw Muk;gpj;jJ. ,e;j KiwahdJ mk;Kiw ghPl;ir vOjpa khzth;fSf;F Kd;$l;bNa mwptpf;fg;gltpy;iy. khwhf ghPl;ir Kbe;jgpw;ghL gy;fiyfof mDkjpf;F ,e;j Kiwia Kjd; Kjyhf mwpKfk; nra;Jtpl;lhh;fs;. ,e;j KiwahdJ ghlj;jpd; juj;ij nghWj;Jj;jhd; mth;fsJ ntl;Lg; Gs;sp fzf;fplg;gLk;. vdNt ,jpy; gy khzth;fspd; tho;f;if tuyhW mope;jJ. vdNt mg;gbahd xU #o;epiy ,dpAk; ,e;jg; ghPl;ir %yk; te;J tplf;$lhJ.
vdNt ,e;j ,uz;L ghPl;ir itf;Fk; tplaj;jpy; vd;d cs;Nehf;fk; cs;sNjh mJ vdf;Fj; njhpahJ. mg;gb VJk; Raeyg; Nghf;Ffs; ek; kj;jpapy; ,Ue;jhy; mij cldbahf mopj;JtpLq;fs;.

,d;DnkhU gpur;rpid mjhtJ 1996 k; Mz;L nfhOk;gpNy cah;ju ghPl;ir vOjtpUe;j khzth;fis kpd;rhuj;jil fhuzkhf ghPl;ir gpw;Nghlg;gl;lJ. vdNt ,J kpd;rhuj;jhy; gps;isfSf;F Vw;gl;l f\;lkhFk;.
Mdhy; vkf;F Vw;g;l mopthdJ vk; tho;f;ifiaNa ,Ul;lhf;fp tpl;bl;L NghapUf;fpwJ.
vdNt vk; tho;f;ifapy; ,Us; fiye;J xsp kWgbAk; tPr Ntz;Lkhdhy; fy;tp mjpfhhpfs;> cstpayhsh;fs;> fy;tp cstpayhsh;fs; rw;W rpe;jpj;J nraw;gLq;fs;. Vndd;why; ePq;fs; vLf;Fk; xt;nthU KbtpYk; vq;fsJ tho;f;if Xbf; nfhz;bUf;fpwJ. Vd; mt;tsT vq;fSf;F gpd;dhy; tUk; 2006 Mk; Mz;L cah;jug; ghPl;ir vOjg; NghFk; khzth;fSf;Fk;> 2005 k; Mz;L rhjhuz ju ghPl;ir vOjg; NghFk; khzth;fSf;Fk; mtrpakhf fhzg;gLfpwJ.
Vnddpy; ehd; kl;Lk; ,e;j mopthy; ghjpf;fg;gltpy;y my;yJ vd;Dila rfkhzth;fs; kl;Lk; ghjpf;fg;gltpy;iy xl;Lnkhj;jkhf vy;yh khzth;fSk; ghjpf;fg;gl;Ls;sdh;.
vdNt ,ij fUj;jpw; itj;Jf; nfhz;Lk; rpy KbTfis mtjhdkhf vLq;fs;.

mLj;jjhf ,J jdpa tlfpof;F gFjp kf;fSf;F kl;Lk; Vw;gl;l mdh;j;jkpy;iy khwhf ,yq;ifapd; fiuNahug; gpuNjrj;jpy; thOk; rfy kf;fSf;Fk; Vw;gl;l mdHj;jkhfk;.Mdhy; rpy gFjpfspy; thOk;
khztHfs; rpyH vq;fSf;F vq;fSf;F Vg;gpuy; khjj;jpy; jhd; ghPl;ir elj;jg;gl Ntz;Lk; vd;W $Wfpd;whHfs;. Mdhy; ,e;j epfo;thdJ vd;id kpfTk; kdNtjidf;F cl;gLj;jpAs;sJ. Vnddpy; xUrpyh; tho;f;ifap; Ntjidg;gLk;NghJ mth;fsJ Jah;fis Jilf;fhky; mth;fis ,d;Dk; ,d;Dk; Jauj;jpw;F cs;shf;Fjy; khzth;fshfpa cq;fSf;F ,J rhpahf njd;gLfpwjh? ePq;fs; cq;fs; epiyikia kl;Lk;jhdh Nahrpj;Jg; ghh;g;gJ?
khwhf vy;NyhiuAk; gw;wp rpe;jpAq;fs;. vy;NyhUk; xd;whf Fuy; nfhLq;fs; vdNt ,ij ehd; jdpa nrhy;tjhf episahjPh;fs; ghjpf;fg;gl;l rfy khzth;fspd; Jf;fj;Jld; fye;J thh;j;ijfshf epidAq;fs;.

vdNt ehd; ,d;Dnkhd;iwAk; ,jpy; Fwpg;gpl;lhf Ntz;Lk;. ehk; FLk;g cwTfis ,oe;J> tPL clikfis ,oe;J> vkf;F fw;gjw;F
Njitahd Mtzq;fisAk;
,oe;Js;Nshk;. vdNt ,g;NghJ cldbahf ghPl;irf;F jahuhFq;fs; vd;why; mJ vt;tsT Jhuk; vk;kpilNa rhj;jpakhFk;. vdNt ehd; Kjypy; $wpNdd; Kjyhtjhf vkf;F xU epue;jukhd xU tjptplj;ij mikj;J juNtz;Lk;. ,uz;lhtjhf czit Neuj;jpw;F juNtz;Lk; %d;whtjhf Mtzq;fisnay;yhk; ngw;Wj;juNtz;Lk;. mjd; gpw;ghNl ,e;jg; ghPl;iriag; gw;wp fijf;f Ntz;Lk;. mJTk; vy;NyhUf;Fk; Nrh;j;J Gul;lhjp khjj;jpy; ghPl;iria elj;jf; $ba khjphp Nkyjpfhhpfs; fy;tpajpfhhpfs; fy;tp cstpayhsh;fs; cstpayhsh;fs; vy;NyhUk; Nrh;e;J KbntLf;f Ntz;Lk;. ,ijj;jhd; ,e;j Mopg;Nguiyahy; ghjpf;fg;gl;l khztdpd; Ntz;LNfhs; MFk;. vdNt ,tw;wpw;F tpiuthf gjpy; juTk;.